Happy Day after Christmas! :)
So the holidays for 2012 are behind us. And I must say I am glad that they are, this year was a little difficult for me because for the first time in 8 years I spent it alone. I mean I had my family and my kids beside me but I was alone in the sense that I am single. If you would have asked me a year ago or even 6 months ago if I could see myself alone this year on the holidays I would have confidently said no. I knew that we had our problems and I knew deep down that he did not love me like he used to but I never would have imagined him leaving us before the holidays.
That is besides the point tho. We did our best to make the best of it. We spent time with family, watched movies together, and just tried to have as much fun as we could.
My children understand things very well tho. They understood that they wouldn't be getting as much presents as they would like this year from mom and that mom still loves them despite of what has happened. And that has made me very great full... my kids are wise beyond their years in many things...
Despite all of this happening we had a wonderful Thanksgiving and Christmas. The kids spent time with their dad on his day with them and got lots of family time there as well as they did when they were home with mom.
I could be a bitter person and hate him for what has happened but then I would just be lowering my standards of things. I dont hate him for what has happened, I am sad for my children but things will be ok in due time. I know that waht happened and why it happened was for the best.
He didnt love me anymore and I am ok with that. It stung at first but deep down I knew it all along. I felt him pulling away and us drifting apart long ago. I just was trying to hold on to it for the kids sake. Things will get better for the kids and I, we just have to be patient! God has big plans for us, I just know it!
This is the end of my post, have a wonderful New Year everyone!
